I have felt a lot like whining lately. I know my last few entries were on the various things I'm thankful for, and really, I could list about ten thousand more. But, it's 3:20 am and I haven't slept a wink yet, (something that has become rather commonplace for me over the last few weeks), and I am grouchy. Seems that when I can empty my bladder and adjust the pillows enough to get near to sleep, the leg convulsions I've been having kick in and continue until I decide to just quit trying to sleep through them and get up and move around. My siatic (spelling?) nerve is also pinched and causes movement to be nearly impossible later in the evening and throughout the night. I'm just sick of all these aches and pains and ready to hold my baby...I mean, I'm up all night anyway, right?
All of that being said, I must keep everything in perspective. Checking my dear friends' blog noahangie.blogspot.com is the best means of doing this for me. Their little girl was due along with Cody at the end of December, but was born three months early and has been in NICU ever since. With two other young children, they have been trying to balance the hectic schedule along with all the rollercoasters of emotions that come with being encouraged and discouraged from day to day. I have another friend on bedrest with her pregnancy right now, and know plenty of people who have dealt with one or more miscarriages. I also know others who have tried (one for eight years) to get pregnant at all without any luck. With all that can go wrong in a pregnancy, how insanely blessed am I to have two back-to-back goes at it without complication? It makes me feel like a complete goon to even dream of opening my mouth about how uncomfortable I am!
Please pray for us as we approach this long-anticipated day and as we prepare ourselves for another very busy time with a newborn. Pray for my patience while I wait and even more, for my patience when the baby is here and I am feeling overwhelmed. I am so concerned that I will lose patience with Ben over little things in my exaustion.
Thanks and I'll keep you posted.
1 comments:
You WILL lose your patience w/ Ben...and that's OK, it's normal:). The important thing is to not establish a pattern of losing your patience, but it's bound to happen every now and again. With every kid I becoming increasingly aware of my shortcomings as a mom. But I'm thankful for that b/c otherwise I'd be mothering in my own strength and that's way worse than losing your patience every now and again!
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